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Milk and Honey written by Rupi Kaur

 

It was November 2014 when Rupi Kaur self-published her first collections titled ‘Milk and Honey’, a collection of poems and prose about struggles and life. The collection is divided into four chapters: the hurting, the loving, the breaking, and the healing which individually denotes the author’s experience in love, loss, pain, and recovery.

 

NOTABLE PASSAGES:

I honestly prefer every poem and prose written on this book as notable because they really are. Every single line denotes Kaur’s deep emotions. It almost as if the poem was meant for me, as if I was struggle the same or as if I’ve experienced the same.

 

WHAT I LOVED ABOUT THIS BOOK:

I loved the fact that this book is self-published. Before, I thought self-published books couldn’t make it to the market.  I thought people only turn their attention to books from well-known publishers and that if your book doesn’t belong there, people might just ditch them. I don’t want that to happen. I want my future book to be read by people. Rupi Kaur has enlightened me, given me courage to just keep on doing what I love, expect less and simply, see the outcome.

I don’t know why Kaur didn’t prefer to have a publisher or maybe like me, she doesn’t have the courage to try sending her manuscript. Her reasons may vary and it’s okay. Consequently, when Milk and Honey became a success, it leads her to Andrew McMeel publishing releasing it under their name on October 2015.

 

Overall, just like what I’ve mentioned on my preferred notable passages, I loved every single thing in this book: the illustrations which are personally illustrated by her, the lines, its structure and the plain black cover of this book.

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DO I WANT TO SEE THIS ON BIG-SCREEN?

The idea of violence, loss, heartbreak, how an individual survives all of those pains is definitely a good concept for people to watch. I don’t know how they are going to create an adaptation of this, maybe a theatre musical or a theatre acts will do since it’s a collection of prose and poems. Yes, I’d love to see it on big-screen.

 

WILL I RECOMMEND THIS BOOK TO ALL AGES?

No. The concept is too mature for very young readers. I think they could just tell what this book is all about in a simple and nice way, in that way, they will understand the book.

RATINGS: 5 stars for the concept/idea, 4 stars for the plain black cover with honey bees, 5 stars on the contents, various prose and poems.

 

Know more about Rupi Kaur here: https://www.rupikaur.com/

 

Originally posted on Medium: https://medium.com/ceeart/milk-and-honey-written-by-rupi-kaur-bac561426553

Why I wanted to watch 13 Reasons Why and yet I haven’t done so…

I’ve seen this book a couple of times before it became a television series released on NetFlix. For some reasons, it didn’t catch my attention maybe because that time, I was searching a specific book which was urgently needed. Now, it has been one of the most anticipated adaptations. It was released on March 31, 2017 and here I am flooded by everyone’s commentary, friends asking me to check it out or give the book a shot to read which lead me to go ahead, try and just watch the series though first of all, I do not have an account on NetFlix (probably my №1 problem here).

The book was written by Jay Asher which was published under RazorBill. The story revolved around how Hannah Baker, a high school student, life has ended. In the book, the story is told from the perspective of Clay Jensen, Hannah’s classmate who has been in love with her through numerous flashbacks from the cassette tapes that has been anonymously dropped on his doorstep. Each tape states the reasons why she committed suicide, which also includes the people behind the trigger to do so. Before the tapes arrived on Clay’s mail, they were also sent to those particular people.

So basically, the book is about teenage lives, a definitely awareness to some that do the same or shared the same experience of Hannah Baker, who has been ruined by the detrimental emerging “youth”, Hannah was abused, physically, mentally and emotionally by the people within her school. This is not an odd- happening, right? You could possible witness the same scenario anywhere most especially in your school or at home. Out of curiosity, I’ve read reviews about the book, among all of them; I find this review on-point or enlightening especially to people like neither me who haven’t watched nor read the book yet.

This review was taken from Goodreads. Credits to the rightful person.
Continuation of the featured review.

 

Indeed, Thirteen Reasons Why is both a must-read and watched but why I haven’t done so?

Three things;

First, I am currently reading a popular contemporary novel which already had its movie adaptation in 2009, The Time traveler’s Wife which was written by Audrey Niffenegger in 2003. The movie left a bitter-sweet feels in me and I’m in the midst of comparison whether the book will also do the same. What are the events that didn’t make it to its adaptation? Surely, there were some or maybe a few. Who knows? I am adamantly curious that I couldn’t abandon this book for a while just because I got intrigued with a controversial book. It definitely can wait till I finished this book. It doesn’t matter if I get to watched 13 Reasons Why when the hype is over, abandoning books that I’ve began reading is not my thing.

Second, (Sure, you’ll find this a shallow or a lame reason) as what I’ve mentioned earlier, I don’t have a NetFlix account. I don’t usually watch on it because I don’t know, I’m not interested? Or maybe I just got use to watch in YouTube. Sorry.

And lastly, I haven’t tried watching 13 Reasons Why also because like Hannah Baker, I am depressed. Not because of school matters but due to random late night thoughts, every day stuffs, everything. I can’t tell you specifically my countless reasons why because even I don’t know where to start. I am okay, the thoughts of ending my life doesn’t pop out of mind. It did before, but I do not have the courage to do so because just like the others, I’m afraid. I’m afraid of the amount of blood that will come out rushing through my skin. I’m afraid of what will happen next. Reading has been a good therapy for me and somehow, I slowly forget what I was anxious about. Slowly but at least it helps. Even if The Time Traveler’s Wife turned out to be a boring book that would lead me to stop reading it, I wouldn’t mind watching 13 Reasons Why,now that I also heard, how Hannah Baker killed herself will be portrayed.

It is a good book, television series but I’m afraid. I will be watching it but not this time, not till I recover and get a little better.

Originally posted on medium.com: https://medium.com/ceeart/why-i-wanted-to-watch-13-reasons-why-and-yet-i-havent-done-so-8e27654f7fe2

BOOK REVIEW: History is all you left me written by Adam Silvera

After my heart-wrenching experience reading the book of Jasmine Warga, My heart and other black holes, I have just let my heart get shattered into tiny pieces reading Adam Silvera’s second book, History Is All you left me.

Having a nonlinear narrative type of storytelling (Correct me, if I’m wrong), Adam’s book begins on the “supposed- to-be- the ending” of a typical tragic story where a significant character died. Griffin mourns the death of his first love/ ex-boyfriend, Theo who has drowned himself in California where he was sent to study. Griffin and Theo knows each other since they were in middle school. They both know what each other are fond of: Griffin, a Potterhead, Theo, a Star wars fan, also obsessed with apocalypse thingy. Everything seem so well for them way back in the beginning of their relationship, only when Theo retorts that he will be studying in California. Afraid of the consequences, Griffin decided to break up with Theo but unlike the ordinary break-ups, Griffin and Theo remains in good terms which turns out a punch on Griffin’s face when Theo met a guy that he began to like, Jackson.

Griffin suffers from OCD(Obsessive Compulsive Disorder) who already took part in his daily living, like when he always wait for the even number to appear every time he’ll do something like calling someone and always taking the left side. His compulsions got worse when Theo died and surprisingly, it was only Jackson not even Wade, Theo’s best friend who eventually became Griffin’s friend, who could understand him because they both love Theo and he knows that there are puzzle pieces hidden on Jackson that may give answers to Griffin’s curiosity. Who was Theo when he’s with Jackson? How did Theo drown? And what about his friendship with Wade?

I’ll cut it here because I still couldn’t handle the intensity of feels that I got after finishing this book. And I would highly recommend you readers to read on for you to see and of course, feel the intensity of heartbreak and feels that I am talking about. I want you guys to feel what it’s like to sob late at night and on a fire exit (I continued reading the remaining events there not only because it’s secluded also because I got in the office very early. One of the perks of being an early bird, I guess.)

NOTABLE PASSAGES:

· Secrets can turn people into liars, and my lying days are behind me

· People are complicated puzzles, always trying to piece together a complete picture, but sometimes we get it wrong and sometimes we’re left unfinished. Sometimes that’s for the best. Some pieces can’t be forced into a puzzle, or at least they shouldn’t be, because they won’t make sense

· Every time a new old song comes on, I’m being resurrected. This is the true power of history. Old memories and feelings are being revived, and I’m not complaining. It’s like I still have the fatigue that got me to quit the song in the first place, but I don’t mind being woken up to it for a little bit.

· “The world didn’t end,” Wade says. “You stayed in the moments.”

· There’s nothing wrong with someone’s saving my life, I’ve realized, especially when I can’t trust myself to get the job done right. People need people. That’s that.

· History remains with the people who will appreciate it most.

WHAT I LOVED ABOUT THE BOOK…

It’s structure. How it was written which I found well-done. I love Adam Silvera’s idea of making a dead character feel like his still alive. His usage of the pronoun “you” made his readers grasp Theo’s view as Griffin used it to refer to Theo as if he’s just talking casually to him.

The same-sex relationship in a book is honestly new to me. I love how Griffin’s parents support his sexuality. It is actually the first book that I have read having this kind of relationship. I thought it’ll be an awkward reading for me along the way but as the story goes on, it didn’t matter maybe because my attention is on the idea of loss, heartbreak, and still living. It’s contemporary, though. I’ve been eyeing books on the said genre this month so no matter what kind of relationship is involved, it doesn’t really matter.

And oh, before I forgot to mention, I so love the songs Adam Silvera has featured most especially “Be still my Heart” by Postal Service. I played this one right when Griffin began to mention it. Here are the other featured songs that I hope you guys spare some time to listen to.

  • All Night by Icona Pop
  • Take Me Out by Franz Ferdinand
  • Hold On by Wilson Philips
  • Carry Me by Family of the Year

I hope I didn’t miss any.

DO I WANT TO SEE THIS ON BIG-SCREEN?

Some of you may want to ask me why I included this question on my book reviews and my answer is pretty simply. Several books has been taken for adaptation nowadays and things like, Will what I have imagined in this book between what will happen if it became a movie will match? I wanted all the books that I’ve read to come to life. Which is why I’m sorting out books that I would gladly watch or worthy to be watched on big-screen.

History is All You left me is also one of the books that I wanted to see on big-screen. The only reason is its structure. While I was reading this book, I already imagined what it would be like if it’s a movie, it’s nonlinear narrative so I imagined it will be like The Lorax who went from past to present.

And overall, I love the heavy feeling that it has given to me. I’m kind of curious if it’ll be the same once portrayed by actors and actresses. I hope.

WILL I RECOMMEND THIS BOOK TO ALL AGES?

No. It is safe to say that only matured enough people is recommended to read this book.

RATINGS: 5 stars for the concept/ structure of the entire story, 4 stars on the cover, 4 stars on the flow of the story

Originally posted on https://medium.com/ceeart/book-review-history-is-all-you-left-me-written-by-adam-silvera-4548aaffae3c

Are We Witnessing The Beginning Of The End For Free Music Streaming?

“Our theory was simple,” wrote Daniel Ek, co-founder and CEO of Spotify, in 2014, “offer a terrific free tier, supported by advertising, as a starting point to attract fans and get them in the door.”

So what happens after everybody’s crossed the threshold?

At the time Ek wrote that post he was reacting to the high-visibility exit of Taylor Swift from his platform over a disagreement (to put it kindly) about the vast catalog of “free” (what the industry refers to as “ad-supported”) streaming music it offered. At the time, Spotify had 12.5 million paying users and 37.5 million listening for free — it now has 50 million subscribers and at least 50 million free listeners. Through that growth, the company has vehemently (and in that blog post from Ek, quite dramatically) defended its two-tier “freemium” approach — free streaming with ads and paid subscriptions with no ads — despite repeated criticism from artists over the much lower royalty rates it paid for those ad-supported streams.

No longer. This week, Spotify relented, agreeing to withhold certain albums from the free tier of listeners. For a two-week window following their release dates, certain albums will only be available to paying subscribers. The deal was struck after a two-year-long negotiation with Universal Music, the world’s largest record label, over the structure and cost of licensing the label’s music. “We know that not every album by every artist should be released the same way,” Ek wrote, surprisingly matter-of-fact, yesterday. Billboard reports that in return, Spotify got UMG to agree to lower royalty fees for hitting revenue targets.

“In a market this dynamic,” Universal Music chairman and CEO Lucian Grainge wrote* of the deal yesterday (Apr. 4), “one evolving more rapidly than ever before, success requires creative and continual re-evaluation of how best to bring artists’ music to fans.”

(*Note: Some possible motivation for Universal’s negotiating position can be traced to the moment in 2016 when Grainge and the label were the butt of a contractual joke engineered by none other than Frank Ocean, who used the release of his 45-minute-long visual album Endless to satisfy his contract with Universal Music. Hours later, he released his “proper” album, Blonde, as a self-released exclusive on Apple Music. Grainge reacted swiftly, calling for an end to all platform-specific album exclusives like Ocean’s. Grainge already had, for years at that point, been criticizing free streaming.)

A key element of the dynamism that Grainge seems to be referencing here is the fact that, unlike at the time of Ek’s blog post, a huge number of listeners are now “in the door.” Streaming is both the dominant source of revenue for the major labels (“streaming represents the majority of the business,” as Grainge wrote yesterday) and the primary way the western world accesses music. The industry is no longer as willing to subsidize Spotify’s growth (which has translated into its own success). And so we come to the death, by natural market causes, of a favorite Silicon Valley business strategy.

Now, the writing is on the wall for music fans — if you want to hear what you want to hear when you want to hear it in the friction-free and anywhere-access way you’ve become accustomed, the time is fast-approaching when you will be required to pay up.

Spotify’s deal with Universal (as well as contracts with Warner Music and Sony Music which are still under negotiation) is not the only thing threatening Spotify’s free tier. One month ago in Washington, D.C. a byzantine and little-known process, overseen by a panel of three judges named the Copyright Royalty Board, began to determine the rates that Spotify and its competitors will pay not to recording artists or labels but songwriters and music publishers.

Put simply (this part of the music business can induce headaches), this process involves the filing of arguments by companies about how much they should pay to license song compositions — and some of these arguments would all but annihilate Spotify’s free tier. Apple, arguing on behalf of Apple Music — which has become Spotify’s lead competitor since its launch a little less than two years ago — writes:

“Interactive streaming services do not need to be ‘protected.'”

What Apple is referring to is Spotify’s own arguments to the Board, in which the company spends a significant amount of time defending free listening. Apple posits that Spotify’s arguments to save its free tier amount to institutional protection. To that end, it has proposed a royalty rate that would, if accepted, essentially force Spotify to shutter its free tier, by making it pay the same royalty on paid and free streams. Songwriters have done essentially the same, asking for a raise and a similar change to the structure of their royalties from streaming services.

The Copyright Royalty Board revisits these rates every five years. The last time it met, it kept rates the same. But the music business has changed so vastly since 2012 that the argument to keep things as they are is now more difficult to defend. (We’ll find out in December, when the CRB expected to issue its decision.)

Now that the traditional music business, made up of the major labels and major publishers, has some semblance of stability after a decade-and-a-half of economic diminution and strategic chaos, it’s back on the offensive. Killing free streaming is one fight. Spreading its bets through licensing to virtual reality endeavors and being more open-minded to licensing its catalog to social startups — as we covered in early February — is another.

Listeners, musicians and tech companies are through the door now. Spotify, an extremely important source of revenue for the music industry, now has to worry about the next milestone — going public. (A report from The Wall Street Journal today says the company may pursue a type of initial offering that could be more lucrative for its equity holders, which include the three major record labels.) After years of the industry softly subsidizing Spotify’s growth into a mature business, they now want it to start acting like one.

 

Originally posted by/on: / http://www.npr.org/sections/therecord/2017/04/05/522762634/are-we-witnessing-the-beginning-of-the-end-for-free-music-streaming?utm_source=facebook.com&utm_medium=social&utm_campaign=nprmusic&utm_term=music&utm_content=20170410

Kain Mo ‘To, Sapak Mo ‘To, Selpi Mo’ To… MO ‘TO PA MORE

 

 

Kilala talaga ang mga Pinoy sa pagkakaroon ng  malikot na isipan, unang una na diyan ang pagsulpot ng naglilipanang trending expressions na kadalasang naa-adapt agad at ginagamit na din sa araw-araw na pakikipag-usap. Yung tipong may pumasok lang na isang salita sa isip nila at agad nila itong uulitin ulitin hanggang sa pumatok at gayahin na rin ng iba. Para sa akin, isa sa mga pinaka influential pagdating sa mga trending na expression ay si Vice Ganda. Mapapansin mo agad iyon kung madalas mo siyang napapanood sa Showtime, kung saan ipinapamalas niya ang kagalingan niya sa pagpapatawa.

 

“Ansabe! Edi wow!, Pak Ganern, Push mo ‘yan , Charot!, Chos!” Ilan lamang yan sa mga expression na naging trending dahil kay Vice Ganda, isa rin ito sa mga gamit na gamit ng expression ng mga Pinoy pero  hindi pa rin kumukupas at kadalasan pa ring maririnig sa kanilang mga bibig. Ngunit hindi si Vice Ganda ang sentro ng topic ko ngayon. Ito ay ang bagong nauusong trending expression ngayong 2017, ang “Mo ‘to” na agad napabilang sa bokulabolaryo ng mga Pinoy lalo na ng mga kabataan.

 

“Uy! tara kain tayo.”

“Kain mo ‘to”

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Unang beses kong napansin ang expression na ito nung mga nakaraang buwan. Hindi ko maiwasang mairita o mapaisip kung ano bang ibig nilang sabihin sa “mo ‘to” na ‘yan. Kung minsan pa nga ay gusto kong mag-iwan ng comment sa posts ng mga friend ko sa Facebook na sumasabay sa trend na ito para sabihing itigil nila o kaya naman magtanong kung anong sense o meaning ng sinasabi nila ngunit nangingibabaw pa rin sa akin ang respeto kasi Facebook nila iyon at obviously, wala akong karapatan na makialam sa trip nila.

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Yung tipong pati ang dapat siniseryoso ginagawa na ding biro

Ako lang ba ang naiinis sa trend na ito? Na halos lahat na ata ng sasabihin eh may “mo ‘to” na sa dulo ng pangugusap nila. Wala talaga akong ideya sa ibig sabihin ng “Mo ‘to” na ito, may malaki bang epekto kapag inilagay ko yan sa dulo ng sasabihin ko?  Ang ibig sabihin ba ng “mo ‘to” na yan ay yung literal na “Mo ito?” Kung ganon, hindi ba parang nakakabastos kung, gaya sa una kong halimbawa na nakita ko sa isang facebook post, “Kain mo ‘to”, ibig sabihin ang ipinapahiwatig niyan, “Kainin mo ito?” Ang alin? “Selpi mo ‘to”, ibig sabihin “Iselpi mo ito” iselpi ang alin?

 

Hindi ba parang nonsense kung iisipin mo maigi ang ibig sabihin ng taong nagsabi nun?

 

Ang mga Pilipino kasi, basta’t nag-trending ang isang bagay gagayahin agad kahit na alam naman nila na kakaiba ito. Ang mas masaklap pa riyan, kahit na alam nila na walang kwenta ang ibig sabihin nito, ipagpipilitan pa rin nila ang paggamit ng expression na iyon makasabay lamang sa uso. Hindi ba mas maayos ang usapan kung maayos ka rin makikipagusap?

 

Tandaan, hindi lahat ng trending eh “cool”. Yung iba pinagmumukha kang walang modo, or worse, retarded.

(Bato bato sa langit ang tamaan, wag magagalit.)
Mo ‘to Pa More! Hay, Naku.

5 Disturbing Documentaries on Child Abuse

 

The LORD is slow to anger, abounding in love and forgiving sin and rebellion. Yet he does not leave the guilty unpunished; he punishes the children for the sin of the parents to the third and fourth generation.’ Numbers 14:18

According to research, every year more than 3.6 million referrals are made to child protection agencies involving more than 6.6 million children. The United States is said to have one of the worst records among industrialized nations– losing on average between four and seven children every day to child abuse and neglect. In order to raise awareness and give reminders to everybody that child abuse, in whatever forms has a huge impact in children’s lives. I have gathered 5 of the most disturbing documentaries among all I’ve watched, relating to child abuse, sexual abuse in specific.

    1. Child of Rage– This documentary focus on 6 year old girl, Beth Thomas which was discovered to be a victim of sexual abuse when she was just 1 year-old. She talks about how her birth father molested her that as can be seen, has resulted to a horrible impact in her mind as a child. Beth’s adoptive parents shared their terrifying experience living with her. The remaining scenes focus on how Beth plans to kill her family and how she little by little recovers with the trauma. Luckily, Beth is now living normally as a certified nursing assistant.
  1. Just Melvin, Just Evil -This is a true story of incestion, a series of sexual abuse committed by Melvin E. Just to all of his daughters even son. In the documentary which was documented by James Ronald Whitney, Melvin’s grandson, he interviewed his family members asserting how his grandfather molested them at an early age. In a certain part of the documentary, Melvin can be seen being confronted by James Whitney on camera about the accusations which he firmly denies at all. The film ends when Whitney’s aunts visited Just in the nursing home. Some of his aunts cannot face him while the others give him hugs and a kiss. Few months after the film has been done, Melvin died at the age of 71.
  1. Child Sexual Abuse Allegations in the UK- This is a video footage of an 8 year old child being interrogated by a psychiatrist. The child was asked multiple questions in regards to the alleged sexual abuse. Based on the reactions of the people who have watched the footage, it seems that the child has been brainwashed and was directed to narrate what happened to him in a different story. Now, in my opinion, I think that the child is indeed a victim of sexual abuse. If you observe his actions, the way he talks, how he responds to the questions is quite strange. I believe in the speculations that the child was possibly brainwashed in order for the molester to be kept hidden. He’s a child, too naive to simply make up stories. No matter what is behind this story, I hope for the child’s recovery.
  1. The Lost Girls of South Africa -A documentary set in South Africa. It reveals the shocking situation of children mostly women who suffer from sexual abuse. According to the film, 62% of South African secondary schoolboys believe forcing someone to have sex is not an act of violence, and one third of male learners believe girls enjoy rape. It is also mentioned that a girl born in South Africa has a one in three chance of completing secondary education, and a one in a four chance of being raped. This was nominated in EMMY Awards though it unluckily won the award, still an award-winning documentary for me.
  1. The Mary Bell Case -In 1968, Mary Flora Bell, an 11 year old girl killed two little boys by strangling them to death for the pleasure and excitement of killing. The bodies were discovered on waste ground two months later with the letter M carved into his stomach with scissors. She later won a court order giving her right to anonymity for life. According to research, Mary’s family background may be responsible for her strange behavior. Similar to Beth Thomas, Mary Bell has suffered to sexual abuse that haunted her throughout her childhood. It was discovered that her mother, Betty, forced her to engage in sexual acts with men at the age of four.

 

As I have said, which I am certain everyone is aware, Child abuse has a huge impact in the individual’s being. It ruins a child’s innocence which may lead them to horrible deeds taken the children included in my list as an example. Do not let any child suffers from this terrible crime. Act not because you just want to help, do it because you can’t stand letting a life about to be ruined.

research source: https://www.childhelp.org/child-abuse-statistics/

Book review: My Heart and other Black holes written by Jasmine Warga

(Note: This review contains spoilers.)

A story of two young people battling with the same tormenting mental disorder, depression,  Aysel, a 16 year old physics nerd who has been very eager plotting her own death found a courageous way to fulfill her objective thru a website called Suicide Partners in which she has found her suicide buddy, FrozenRobot.

FrozenRobot, Roman is also struggling on the same illness; they were both in the midst of sadness and emptiness. Roman blames himself as the reason why her younger sister has died. So to pay for his guilt he wanted to kill himself on April 7, her sister’s death anniversary.

Thus, Aysel decided to choose FrozenRobot to do her suicide with, although for her the name “frozen robot” sounds like a flake. They decided to meet up to get to know each other and to begin their plan as well.

The two has unveiled both their secrets. They were able to know each other’s family (though Roman, only met Georgia, Aysel’s half sister), Aysel got close with Roman’s parents gaining their full-trust in order for Roman to be able to get away on April 7 because Roman has history of emotional instability due to her sister’s death which is why his parents were warned to keep an eye on him, not letting him go anywhere by himself. Thanks to Aysel, he did it now; he can now plan his death without his parents worrying without him out of their sight.

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As their suicide day is coming, Aysel realized that she is turning into a flake, backing out of their plan to die. She has come to realize that there is more to life that living life only depends on people’s perception. In the midst of her plan to change Roman’s mind, she wanted to meet her father who has been detained in jail and was transferred to a mental hospital to apologize not being by his side when the incident has happened. Aysel knows her father to be hot-headed, not being able to control his madness, this made her got afraid that she might also have the traits of being insane. She was afraid that soon she’ll be like her father who killed Timothy Jackson, a supposed to be Olympic athlete to represent Langston. The news spread like a virus that everyone in their town knows what her father did. It was the reason why her friends began to stay away from her, resulting for her to just shut everyone out of her life, her remaining friend even family. It was the reason why she wanted to end her life at such an early age.

In the long run, Aysel has come to finally change her mind, she believes that her perception changed because of knowing Roman and probably by falling in love with him, she firmly believes that it was Roman who saved her life that led her to pledge she wouldn’t let Roman die on their planned day or if he did, she would probably wouldn’t let him die alone.

“You are resilient”, Roman said to Aysel. This is the part when Roman realized that Aysel deserves to live, that Aysel could change her life and be happy for the rest of her life. Roman decided to take his own life alone. It was only a day before her sister’s death anniversary when he attempted to kill himself. He’s probably dead by now if Aysel came too late. Roman was sent to hospital the moment Aysel and his mother saw him unconscious inside the car.

In the end, Aysel confessed her love for Roman and they both found hope to live on.

NOTABLE PASSAGES:

  • Anyone who has actually been that sad can tell you that there’s nothing beautiful or literary or mysterious about depression.
  • Liking things is dangerous.
  • We all want to believe that every day is different, that every day we change, but really, it seems that certain things are coded into us from the very beginning.
  • But now I draw because sometimes it feels impossible to talk. It’s like I’m trapped in this deep hole that I can’t get out of. I draw to try to escape it, even though I know I’ll never be able to.
  • Everything in life is about the perception of the observer.
  • Put your hand on a hot stove for a minute and it seems like an hour. Sit with a pretty girl for an hour and it seems like a minute. That’s relativity.
  • …and frankly, the frustrating thing about love. Things that matter to the other person start to seem intriguing, even if they are actually trite when you really think about them.
  • I wonder if that’s how darkness wins, by convincing us to trap it inside ourselves, instead of emptying it out. I don’t want it to win.

WHAT I LOVED ABOUT THE BOOK…

I honestly love everything on this book. I love the threaded-patch cover of this book, its simplicity, how well it was written and most especially, I love the message of this book. True to fact, depression is an agonizing mental disorder, which makes a person suffering kill himself physically to stop the pain mentally and emotionally. It makes an individual feel empty on the inside. I have become interested with this book because I was once into this state, that I thought the only answer to all this thing running in my head, all this things that I feel is to simply end everything and just shut down myself. Until one day, I realized that I am so unfair to the people that I will be leaving. Under those circumstances, this book reminds me of myself letting go of any pessimistic thoughts, changing my perception on living this life.

 

DO I WANT TO SEE THIS ON BIG-SCREEN?

Big YES! My heart and other black holes deserve to be on big-screen because it raises awareness for people to understand a person suffering with depression.  According to Jasmine Warga, the road to recovery is long and ongoing, that in many cases, the battle with depression is a lifelong one. Her book, my heart and other black holes depicts the story of every people dealing with same emptying battle: loneliness, sadness, and self-doubt—depression.  Your closest friend may be struggling through it but you just don’t recognize them because depression may happen to even the most cheerful person in your life, they just don’t want to open up because of what? Afraid to be judge, not used to talk a lot or worse, they think it’ll just pass-by and everything’s going to be normal again. No, they need help.

 

WILL I RECOMMEND THIS BOOK TO ALL AGES?

Yes, definitely.. Children under 10 to 16 years old must be under supervision while reading this because there are some parts of this book that are not suitable for them.

RATING: 5 stars for the concept, 5 stars for cover, 4 stars on the flow of the story.

 

This is originally posted on goodreads.com/@AlphaJuliet43

How to Live ON PURPOSE and Maximize Every Freaking Day

Today can be as great as you want it to be.

Your fate isn’t set. You get to decide how much of yourself you’re going to put into today.

Rather than saying, “Well, we’ll see what happens,” you must powerfully state, “Today, I’m going to make it happen!”

When you go into the gym, you get to decide how hard you’re going to work out. But one thing is for certain, you’ll feel far better if you walk out 30–60 minutes later having given it everything you’ve got.

The same goes with your day.

It’s actually far more exhausting to not work than it is to work. It takes far more energy sitting with internal conflict and justification than it does to just get to work. Said Steven Pressfield, “Most of us have two lives: the life we liveand the un-lived life within us. Between the two stands resistance.”

If your life feels out-of-whack or out-of-balance, you’re likely avoiding the very thing you should be doing. It’s only in doing that thing that you’ll regain balance and peace. Avoidance leads to busyness and distraction.

The Invisible Difference When You Fully Live

When I give everything I’ve got at work, I’m a different person. I’m happier. The world is a more beautiful and abundant place. Other people smile at me as I walk past them and I have no idea why.

Seriously.

On days I’ve actually done what I intended to do, it seems like more people look me in the eyes and smile at me as I walk past them. And I’m certain I’m not initiating those smiles. Yet when I receive one of those smiles, I look at that person for a few moments after they’ve looked away from me. I feel love toward them and wish them happiness in their lives.

Moreover, on days I’ve actually lived my purpose, I leave my work more energized than before I started. When I walk through my front door, my kids often run up and hug me, and ask me to play with them. As I look at them in such moments, I see only perfection. Love fills my heart and I feel an overwhelming sense of gratitude and humility for my life. To adapt a quote from Goethe, “The way you see [a child] is the way you treat them and the way you treat them is [who] they [will] become.”

Conversely, on days I’ve spent my working time in distraction and self-sabotage, I come home feeling like a fraud. My family still loves me all the same. Yet, it’s so much harder for me to give them the attention and love they deserve and need. On wasted and un-lived days, I end up sucking more energy from those around me than I emit. I see only the problems in my children and am highly irritable.

You can’t see the energy-field around you, but it’s there.

You Can Make the Shift

I know what it feels like being stuck and without momentum.

You can feel absolutely powerless to change your life and circumstances.

But that’s a complete lie.

It’s garbage.

I know it feels more real than anything else.

But it’s not.

Feeling guilty about all the time you’ve wasted won’t help.

If you make a few tweaks to your approach, you’ll be surprised at how quickly your perception of the world and yourself will change. As your perception changes, everything around you will change.

Start small.

Give one or two of these a try and watch what happens:

1. Have a weekly reflection and planning session

“The game is won or lost before it begins.” — John Wooden

One day per week (my preference is Sunday), take 10–30 minutes reflecting on your past six days. How did they go?

Try asking yourself the following questions:

· Who did I not meet this week that I should have?

· What did I not do?

· What did I miss?

· What should I tighten up?

Getting down on yourself isn’t the purpose. Rather, being aware of how you’re doing is the purpose. Awareness facilitates empowerment to change.

After assessing your previous week, make better plans for the next six days. Then, in six more days, do it again.

This need not take long, but it can dramatically improve the quality of your weeks and the days within those weeks.

2. Weekly goals > Daily to-do’s

“Most people overestimate what they can do in a day, and underestimate what they can do in a month. We overestimate what we can do in a year, and underestimate what we can accomplish in a decade.” — Matthew Kelly

The more mature you get about your time and results, the less you view things in isolation. In reality, it’s quite easy to have one good day. It’s harder to have a good week, a good month, or a good year.

Yet, most people prefer thinking in shorter time intervals. Why? Because most people lack the confidence to go big. They prefer the dopamine boost of getting lots done, even if they aren’t making any progress.

Thus, most people focus on quantity over quality. They’d rather write 5 mediocre blogs in one week than 1 or 2 really good ones. They’d rather have 5 or 6 mediocre workouts than a few that actually build their long-term strength or endurance.

However, the only way to make big progress is to think in longer intervals. You’re far better off trying something awesome over a week than just chipping away day-by-day. Swing for the fences. Take risks. Go big.

Every week, you should be trying to do something you’ve never done before. You should be elevating your game. It shouldn’t look the same as last week. Hence, the weekly planning sessions. What are you going to strive for this week that will change the game for you?

Are you experimenting, or just going through the motions?

Are you courageously embracing fear and risk?

Are you humbly embracing further education?

If not, you’re plateau’d. And in many ways, it doesn’t really matter what you do with your days. You could do the same thing every day and not get any better.

3. Three month energy cycles

When it comes to your future, you have three vantage points.

· Your vision (your WHY) = 10–25 years’ out

· Your long-term goals (AKA your wild guess) = 36 months’ out

· Your actual goals (AKA your realistic game plan) = the next 90 days

In the 20th century, it was a solid practice to have five year goals. Things were more stable back then. Today, things are changing too abruptly to realistically determine where you’ll be in five years.

Framing your goals in three month increments gives you a clear and realistic future to sprint toward. Of course, these goals are based on your longer-term goals. However, your 3-month goal cycles are your main focus.

Just like your weekly planning sessions, every three months spend a few hours or even a full day reflecting on your previous three months. Make any adjustments you need and make better plans for the next three months.

4. Organize yourself

“Happiness lies in the cultivation of the garden.” — Voltaire

Your life is a garden, cultivate it.

Organize yourself. Clean out the weeds. It doesn’t matter how long it takes. The very act of cultivating your garden will enliven you. You’ll never be finished. But every day, week, and year, you can make your garden a little more beautiful and fruitful.

Clean up your finances.

Clean up how you use your time.

Clean up your relationships.

Cultivate.

Just a little bit every day. Once you start to get things organized, the soil of your life will be better suited for what you plant in it.

5. Always choose the harder right or “higher road”

Perfection is not the goal. However, consistently making better choices is the only way to get momentum. And momentum is exactly what you need. If you’re stuck, momentum is working against you.

It takes some work pumping the water-well to get it going. But it’s worth it.And it really only takes one great day to get it moving.

You are one great day away from having a breakthrough. Steven Pressfield tells of “resisting” what he wanted to do for years. Then one day, he forced himself to write. He threw everything in the garbage he wrote that day. None of it was any good. But when he walked away from that work session to clean a pile of dishes sitting in the sink, he felt changed. “The water felt warm,” he said. He knew that he had just had a breakthrough.

That’s all you need.

Don’t worry about the output when you’re trying to build momentum. Instead, just get yourself to do whatever you feel you need to do.

Regardless of how you feel during the experience, you will feel hope and optimism when you’re done.

You can get to the point where you consciously make solid choices in every situation you’re in.

Consistency = confidence.

Consistency = momentum.

Conclusion

When you woke up today, how did you feel today was going to go?

I challenge you to wake up tomorrow with this feeling, “Today can be as great as I want it to be.”

Having that feeling won’t come out of nowhere. You’ll need to set yourself up to have that feeling. However, setting yourself up isn’t all that hard. It may be as simple as spending 2 minutes the night before writing a plan. It may be spending 15 minutes the Sunday before making a plan.

Whatever it is, you have a reason to live your life to the fullest. You may not know exactly what that reason is, but you’ll find it once you get moving. More than likely, you’ll realize that everything in your life is actually far more beautiful that you could previously perceive.

From this level of joy and purpose, you’ll be empowered to consciously create a future you are worthy of.

Originally posted at ThriveGoal by Benjamin P.Hardy: https://journal.thriveglobal.com/how-to-live-on-purpose-and-maximize-every-freaking-day-f89e43950e74#.rvfz49blg

The Hardships of Being an Early bird: The BOOK WORM EDITION

Being an early bird in certain matters isn’t a newly researched habit, it is no longer new to our knowledge. In fact, some people has developed this practice because it is said that it reflects you as a professional person and that you simply respects the time of the person you’re meeting. In this case, what if you’re a certified book nerd and you find yourself an hour or two earlier than your meeting, what are the things that keeps on bugging your mind, telling you to do this and that, though you already know the possible outcome once you give in to that temptation. Let me share mine.

As far as I’m enjoying myself being a bookworm and an early bird at the same time, there are absolutely things, few ones that I could not stand holding in not only because this two sometimes does not complement but I happen to realized that it is both insanely ridiculous and quite amazing in a way that it hurts a particular part of my being—My self-discipline.

When you’re an early bird you always … and have the need to…

  • The need to stop yourself from getting inside a bookstore because you know yourself too much to just let it be. BOOKS, PLENTY OF BOOKS, BROKE  AHEAD. 
  • Not being aware of the time you have spent from reading in a cafeteria a couple of walks away from your destination. (You couldn’t stop yourself from being pissed off because of the wasted effort you did to complete your OOTD—the make-up and hairdo)
  • Look for newly opened bookstores or nearby bookstores to look for the book that you’ve been searching for since then. Who knows they might have it, after all, you know for a fact that you have time to spend while waiting.

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  • Stop-by at a craft store because you remember your baby (the books–that’s what I call them) needs a new bookmark. Sometimes we’re just so spendthrift that even if our current bookmarks are still good, we just feel the urge to buy a new one.
  • When you decided to stop by in a book store because you swore to yourself (You even kept a pledge) that you won’t buy anything because you’re quite broke you’ll just read and check the new books but you ended up BUYING. But you’re happy, right? Does being disappointed still make sense? Nope, not at all.
  • When you chose to read for the meantime while eating your favorite reading partner snack. (RIP, Pennies) Time out for the budgeting, it is time to treat myself. I’ve been working so hard these few days. (My all-time favorite guilt killer.)

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And lastly, you’re definitely torn between what you are supposed to do (your meeting, plans on that day) and wanting to continue reading especially when they’re both interesting. So tell me, how hard is that to resist?

I suddenly began to think of being on time instead so I could hinder myself from thinking about those temptations. Indeed, an early bird is impressive but in my case, I might get myself broke very soon.

What about you? Do we have the same hardships on being early bird and a bookworm at the same time? If not, share yours below. I’d be glad to read them as well.

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